Healing

Recently, my little family of three has undergone some Summer Time transitions. By the grace of God, and praying fiercely for their safety and comfort, my soul feels at peace.

Don’t get me wrong, friend, this didn’t just happen overnight as my faith was put to the test. There have been days and nights I cried, I screamed, I let my mind entertain the woes and even became angry with God. Wondering why I had to walk through this all. I questioned how He could allow circumstances to fall as they may! I am their Mother, I thought. "I know God knows exactly what is best for them so what was I doing? And why? The constant "why?"

There were restless nights where I grappled with this while things continued to feel out of my control, and prayers seemed to go unanswered. I should have just known then, as I always have, that things happen in His time, not mine. However, reading His word, and faithfully living by it, can be hard in times of suffering, but can make all the difference in my walk. Aligning myself to Jesus.

Mathew 11:28 says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

It is so easy to give in to the enemy who fills my mind and soul with worry, doubt, anxiety and fear. I felt that anyone would have understood if I just gave into the lies, but I know my God has bigger plans for me.

To not actively seek our Lord and Savior is an act of rebellion in my eyes. When the enemy whispers, I must turn to my word and to conversations with God to shelter my mind and my heart in His guidance for I know He can do no wrong.

Balancing spiritual warfare with earthly emotions is no easy task, and often an act that requires me to trust in His Plans, and to surrender my own idea of how my life was supposed to go.

Because I don’t know, only God does. Not long after I surrendered in obedience, I found that God put it on my heart to service those in need during this time apart from my children, to find fulfillment helping others in His kingdom, and to give back to a community that has given so much to me. I began to put this into action and carry out what He laid for me, and in that I found a supernatural calm as I faced obstacles that the enemy sent to destroy me.

You see, the details of my story do not matter so much as the applied scripture and understanding that God has a plan for this season of suffering. Healing is a journey, but I am so thankful for this promise that acts as an anchor for my soul.

Joshua 1:9 says “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go"

My Maker chose me. He made me in His image, and crafted me to be the mother of my babies. He gifted my incredible children to me. I have to trust that there is a purpose in the pain because in my deepest wound, I see His glory in my healing.

Christy